The purpose of this meditation is to focus on our meditation practice and move closer to the attainment of tranquil abiding, and then to consider this in the light of equanimity.

I began with some breathing meditation until my mind was clear and lucid.

I then thought about my meditation practice and the need to be able to stop my mind wandering to distractions. Sometimes it feels like my practice is going backwards instead of forwards. At these times I remind myself that it is always difficult to be objective about these things, and it is best not to get discouraged, but to keep trying, and keep a happy mind.

I brought my mind back to Bodhichitta, and thought about the words ‘so that I may soon release them (my kind mothers) bless me to train in Bodhichitta’, from the Prayer of the Stages of the Path. I thought about how my deepest wish is to free all my kind mothers from the prison of samsara, and how to do this, I must become a Buddha.

I kept repeating the words ‘I must become a Buddha’ to myself, and gradually a very light and meaningful feeling filled me, almost lighting up the intention I had. I stayed with this feeling for a while, not allowing any distractions to interfere with it.

After a while I thought about what this means in the light of equanimity. Equanimity is a balanced mind which holds a warm and friendly feeling towards all living beings without exception. It does not discriminate between people, but holds them to be equal. The same is true of Bodhichitta – it holds all living beings as equally deserving of being free from samsara’s suffering. Equanimity is part of Bodhichitta. With this understanding, I returned to my feeling of wishing to become a Buddha and stayed with it for the rest of the meditation.

Dedication

May all living beings experience the bliss of travelling the path to enlightenment for the sake of all, and reach the final destination to become a pure enlightened being.

Practice in the Meditation Break

I will try to practice keeping my mind on the task at hand, and not let my mind wander. In this way I will practice strengthening my attention and mindfulness.