The purpose of this meditation is to generate a strong wish to free our mind of self-cherishing by contemplating it’s disadvantages, and then to meditate on this in light of equalising self and others.

I began with a very long session of just breathing and letting my mind settle. I let my attention move from gross to subtle signs of breathing, and then to a space like emptiness centred in my heart. After a while of really enjoying this lovely sense of peace and tranquillity, I moved on to the main meditation.

I began by thinking about how my self-cherishing mind contaminates all my thoughts and actions. An image came to mind of a very bad sore, slowly dribbling out puss. This disgusting image seemed to sum it up pretty well. My mind is wounded by this sore of self-cherishing. The sore causes pain and, because it is tender, wants to protect itself from harm. This is like our self-cherishing mind which cares so deeply about itself that it cannot bear criticism or any kind of disadvantage.

I wished I could heal my mind – heal up this painful sore, and leave my mind healthy and strong again. I wished for this to happen, so that my mind could be healed and free from the pain self-cherishing causes myself and others. I let my attention focus on this thought and I stayed with it for a while.

I then thought about what this means in the light of equalising self and others. This practice involves equalising our love for ourself with our love for others. In light of this, contemplating the disadvantages of self-cherishing will make it easier to equalise myself and others, because I will reduce my self-cherishing and create space for cherishing others. With this in mind I returned to my wish to free my wounded mind of self-cherishing completely.

Dedication

May all living beings recognise the faults of self-cherishing and by resolving to heal their mental continuum, quickly attain enlightenment for the benefit of all.

Practice in the Meditation Break

I will try to see the self-cherishing in my mind, and recognise the harm it is causing for me any those around me. In this way I will try to increase my wish to free myself from its hold.