The purpose of this meditation is to generate a very strong feeling of abandoning samsara as a source of happiness, and then to consider what this means in light of Bodhichitta – the wish to become a Buddha for the benefit of all.

I settled down on my cushion and started by thinking about how there is no happiness to be found in samsara, and how only Dharma can free me. I made the promise to myself that I would meditate on renunciation with all my effort. With that, I began.

I brought my mind into my body, then into my heart, and found my Guru at the very centre of my heart. I mixed my mind with his, and and floated in this clear space for a while.

I then thought about this life we have. Our life is full of pain and dissatisfaction. We suffer as we are born. We suffer because we age. We suffer because we get ill. And we suffer because of our death. I mulled over these sufferings for a while. I also thought about the ways in which life is unsatisfactory. We cannot avoid meeting situations we would rather avoid. We are constantly trying to attain situations we desire, and we repeatedly fail to fulfil our wishes.

There is no happiness in this swamp of samsara – I shall stop looking. There is no true happiness to be found. I thought about all the faults of samsara, and made the determination that I will stop looking for happiness here – there is none to be found. I felt like I was completely changing my direction away from samsara and towards the spiritual path. I felt filled with this abandonment of samsara, and focused on it for a while.

After that thought about Bodhichitta, the wish to attain enlightenment for the benefit of all. Of course, the two are fundamental parts of the path. Renunciation leads to personal liberation from samsara, and Bodhichitta leads to Buddhahood so that we can benefit all other living beings. Like I have many times before, I saw the flow of the Lamrim, and how each stage leads to the next, until the final enlightenment is reached. With a feeling of wholeness, I returned to my intention to stop looking for happiness in Samsara.

Dedication

May all living beings develop renunciation for the swamp of samsara, and look to the firm ground of liberation and enlightenment.

Practice in the Meditation Break

I will stop looking for happiness in samsara. There is none.