The purpose of this meditation is to generate the sincere wish to abandon self-cherishing.

fountain-of-lightI began by making the appropriate preparations for meditation, and then started where I left off yesterday, reinforcing my intention to abandon self-cherishing. As I became more familiar with the intention I wondered – if self-cherishing really is the cause of all my problems, and if I abandoned self-cherishing, all my problems would disappear, why on earth am I not putting all my effort into abandoning it immediately. Why is it taking so long?

It seemed to me that I perceive a self that is inherently existent, and through countless lifetimes of familiarity, I have an instinctive wish to grasp at it as inherently existent, and to cherish it, because that’s what you do with an inherently existent self. I need to have a stronger understanding of emptiness so that the grasping will fade and the cherishing of self will make less sense, and be easier to abandon.

I focused on the need to abandon self-cherishing because by doing so I will overcome all my problems. I reached a firm conclusion – I will strive to abandon self-cherishing because it is the cause of all my problems. I tried to keep my mind centred on that thought for the rest of the meditation.

Dedication

May all living beings understand that all their problems are caused by self-cherishing and strive to abandon it, realise emptiness, and attain enlightenment for the benefit of all.

Practice in the Meditation Break

I will try to remember my determination throughout the day.