The purpose of this meditation is to meditate on competitiveness from the point of view of an equal.

I began by making the appropriate preparations and then imagined someone who I think of as an equal in terms of social and spiritual achievement.

I imagined being him, and looking back at myself. Although I am sure he does not view me in this way, I followed the instructions* for the meditation by viewing myself with competitiveness and jealousy.

jealous rivalI put words into his (my) head, as follows:

Although he is my equal, I will nevertheless do everything I can to outdo him. I will hide my faults while telling everyone else about his. I overlook all his good qualities and I will tell everyone else that I am a fraud. I will do everything I can to prevent his progress and interfere with is happiness. I will use every tactic to defeat him in debate and make him look foolish. I will undermine him at every opportunity, and I will not be satisfied until he is isolated and defeated.

I got the feeling of the words, and although they were unpleasant, I mainly focused on their effect on my real self, rather than how my competitor felt.

How should I react to such treatment?

My understanding of Dharma protects me. I understand that others harm me only because they are under the control of their delusions. Their delusions are attempting to harm me, not them. With this understanding, I could see that it is inappropriate to develop dislike or anger towards this person. Instead, I should accept whatever conditions they create for me, and put effort into my practice. This person is really quite kind. He is giving me problems and unfairness with which to practice. He will not be there forever, so I need to make the most of what he has to offer!

I focused on the feeling of practicing Dharma purely with great effort, and stayed with this for the rest of the meditation.

Dedication

May all living beings see obstructions for what they are – the actual path to enlightenment.

Practice in the Meditation Break

I will believe I have no anger, no attachment and no pride, and use all obstructions in the practice of taking and giving.

* Chapter 8 Meaningful to Behold, Geshe Kelsang Gyatso