Yesterday’s meditation was on tranquil abiding.
Today’s meditation was on the emptiness of the I.
I made the appropriate preparations for meditation. I then tried to find the object of negation: The I that I normally see: The inherently existent I.
I brought to mind what is like when I drive home from work in the dark. When I am driving I feel very much like it is just me: my I. I do not perceive my body and I do not perceive my mind. When I am driving there is simply me.
I tried to focus on this feeling of me and I kept it for a short while in meditation.
When I had this feeling firmly in mind I then tried to establish exactly how this I exists. It can exist in one of four ways. My I can be the same as my mind or my I can be the same as my body. My I could be the combination of my mind and my body or it could be completely independent of my mind and my body.
I examined the first possibility. My mind does the thinking. I cannot think – it is my mind that thinks. Therefore my mind and my I are not the same.
Secondly my I is not my body. My body does the moving. When I move it is my body is actually moves. My I does not move unless my body moves. I would never say I am my body. Therefore my body is not my I.
Thirdly I considered that maybe my I is the combination of my body and my mind. Although I can consider my I to be the combination of my body and my mind, whenever I think of my I, I certainly to not think of it as being dual. I always consider my I to be singular.
When I unthinkingly think of myself or my I, I always consider it to be completely independent from everything else. But at the same time it never appears separate from my body or my mind. If I take away my body and my mind I cannot perceive my I.
The result of this contemplation was the feeling that I was looking at a space where my I should be. I felt like I was in the absence of my I.
And I focused on this feeling as the object of my meditation.
May living beings realise their lack of inherent existence.
Practice in the meditation break
I will try to recognise the illusion-like nature of everything I see around me