The purpose of this meditation is to generate the wish to abandon our delusions and in particular our self-cherishing and self-grasping minds.
I began by making the appropriate preparations for meditation and then started by thinking about how my mind is essentially a clear and peaceful space, but it is obscured by the clouds of delusions. Chief amongst these is the delusion of self-grasping. This attitude of mind identifies objects as separate from myself, and I then (very naturally) see them as pleasant or unpleasant – or neither. Objects that are separate from myself and which are pleasant stimulate attachment – the belief that they really do possess the good qualities they appear to have. I then (very naturally) desire them, and engage in negative actions to acquire them.
On the other hand, when I identify objects that are separate from myself and which appear unpleasant, my self-grasping mind believes that they are actually unpleasant in and of themselves. I (very naturally) develop aversion to these objects and engage in negative actions to avoid them.
On the third hand, when I identify object that are neither pleasant nor unpleasant, I develop indifference to them and become familiar with feelings of separation.
My self-grasping causes all my other delusions and directly leads to negative actions which lead to further suffering in cyclic existence.
This has got to stop. The sufferings I experience can all be traced to this one mental habit. It is like the trunk of a tree, whose branches are the delusions and whose fruits are the sufferings of this and future lives.
I resolved to abandon this self-grasping attitude and be free from this suffering. I want to be free from this suffering, and to do so, I will rid myself of this self-grasping ignorance.
I focused on this determination for the rest of the meditation.
May all living beings be freed from the inner demon of self-grasping.
Practice in the Meditation Break
I will try to remember my wish to be free from the cause of all my suffering.