The purpose of this meditation is to generate a strong wish to engage in virtuous actions with a motivation of renunciation.
Renunciation is the wish to be free from the sufferings of samsara. In the intermediate scope of Lamrim we practice developing this wish, and developing the wish to engage in the three higher trainings of Higher Moral Discipline, Higher Concentration and Higher Wisdom. These trainings are called ‘higher’ trainings because they are motivated by renunciation.
I made the appropriate preparations for meditation and then started by reminding myself of the many sufferings I face in my future lives. I developed renunciation for samsara because being ‘in’ samsara is the principal cause of all my sufferings. I then thought about what this means in terms of the three Higher Trainings, and in particular the training in Higher Moral Discipline.
To behave with moral discipline means to not develop the wish to engage in non-virtuous actions and to engage in all our actions with a virtuous motivation. I thought about how I get angry in certain situations, and how in those moments I am functioning in a very narrow context. I am viewing the other person as the cause of my suffering and developing a wish to harm them because I want them to stop causing me a problem. Thinking in this way I make myself a puppet without any agency of my own. My strings are pulled by external factors and I react like a puppet.
But if I keep an awareness of my overall motivation – my wish to be free from samsara – I can maintain an objective distance during these encounters. Normally I would try to ‘win’ the argument in some way, but if I have the motivation of renunciation, I will be able to remember that true winning is to behave in a virtuous manner, with patience and love.
How wonderful it would be if I could always maintain a motivation of renunciation.
I focused on the wish to engage in virtuous actions within the context of renunciation, and let my mind become familiar with it for the rest of the meditation.
May all living beings develop the motivation of renunciation.
Practice in the Meditation Break
I will try to keep an awareness of renunciation and engage in moral discipline with this motivation.